When I was 12 or 13 I found out that alcohol could make me feel good enough and removed my fears. My Father left me, my mother, four brothers, and three sisters. I had a chip on my shoulder for a long time. I ran away from everything. The only answer I had was to drink. When I got older it became alcohol and drugs. After awhile the same thing that took my problems away turned on me like a thief in the night. It made my problems seem bigger. I could no longer work. I lost my wife and son due to my behavior. Alcohol and drugs told me where to go, it ran my life. I just wanted to die. So I prayed to God one night looking on the table in front of me lied my 5th of Seagram’s and my needle and cocaine and my life flashed in front of my face. I just couldn’t take it any more. I told God to kill me or heel me, but I preferred death. The next day I was arrested for possession of cocaine. I went to jail and was offered drug court, it was the hardest thing I’ve endured, but I could no longer live the way I was. I was offered a way to live through 12 suggested steps of AA and had a sponsor. That has taught me the dependency of God’s grace in all my ways. By the help of others that God put here and there, my whole life has transformed.
Sometimes I get caught in life’s hurdles, but never have been so happy and grateful to all the people that helped me and it still continues. My mother and brothers and sisters are so proud of me, but I know its Gods grace. I was homeless when this journey started and wasn’t working. Today, I work for Transitions and am Grateful for the support and the help they do for me. I feel good when I give a Client Hope when he wants to quit or give up. I tell them don’t quit the race, your life will be transformed. I kind of share my experience, strength and hope and try to put a smile on their face. I teach them the importance of safety, food, and cleanliness and just take actions that’s in front of them . Today sometimes I get tears in my eyes when I see how God has transformed my whole life. I no longer have to drink or drugs. When a problem arises in my life, I face it and pray and ask God for directions and it’s done. My life is full today. I have a purpose and a passion for life.